CREEP-O ALERT

apparently he'd liked me for a while, and he wasn't the best at hiding it. i knew, but he never outright said it. he would give me some of his birthday candy because he "didn't like" it, he high-fived me in the hallways, and walked me to class several times. at one point, he found out where i sat at lunch, and brought a handful of his friends. i sit alone at lunch, so it was just me and like four guys from the football team, which made me really uncomfortable. after that, he came back a couple of times, so i started sitting with other friends. and even then, he would sit with us and ask my friends (behind my back) if they thought that he had a chance, and what things i liked, because he wanted to like them too. it was just creepy and i kept getting more and more uncomfortable. 

it got to the point, where i started talking about other guys that i liked and how i hated people hitting on me at work in front of him, hoping that he would get a hint, but he never did. i would have told him how i felt to his face, but i wasn't "supposed to know" that he liked me, so i didn't. 

it took nearly two months for him to finally get the hint that i wasn't into him. he said it was because "there [was] really no point," and that he doesn't have a chance with me. yeah i was glad to have him off my back, and i wasn't as on edge anymore, but he was still being creepy.

and that's really were it started to go downhill. he started ignoring me completely,  and when he did talk to me, it would be snarky comments and hidden eye rolls. he openly used the f-slur several times even though he can't reclaim it, and a friend of mine said that he off handedly talked about killing himself (out of nowhere, about a day or two after he "gave up" on me). his ex-girlfriend told me that he had said the same thing to her when they broke up as a manipulation tactic. 

and then that's it. he moved on to another girl, and says that i "was just a phase." i find this interesting, because i'm a relatively "alt" person, and he's not, and i find that that's a common pattern between "alt" people and "non-alt" people. and to say that i was a "one-week phase" after literally being obsessed with me for two months, i don't know, it just sounds like a half assed cover up to me. 

last week he showed up at my job. i work at the local mall, and so you'd think that him showing up while i'm working wasn't intentional, but it was. he had just been on a date with another girl, and almost as soon as she leaves he comes to visit me "at my spot." it's not like he didn't know i worked there, because we've talked about it before. he left, and i told my manager who he was, and she said that if he comes back, i could go to the back room. the only problem was that i was working the front, as pretty much the only greeter. 

he comes back, maybe five minutes before my shift ended, and starts asking me questions about what it's like working, because he want's to get a job too. my manager comes, tells me i can clock out even though its early, because she knows that i'm not comfortable around him. i tell him the i have to go and clock out, and he tells me that he'll wait for me. at that point i don't know what to do, and so i pretend to clock out, and then walk to the back of the store to ask one of my co-workers for help. i've told this person about him before, and they know everything, plus they've had a similar situation happen to them before. they help me hide from him in the back and when they finally come back to ask me if i'm ok and tell me that it's all clear, i realize that i had a (small scale) panic attack. i was literally shaking, and i couldn't breath.

the next day, he walks into my math class, says hi to one of my friends, and then leaves. he's never come into any of my classes, and it just completely caught me off guard.

now, any time i see him, i spiral into a panic attack. i worry that he's going to keep showing up at my job, and won't leave me alone. i'm just too scared to say anything.