05/01/22, 23:23

the pounding in my chest has become so frighteningly familiar. even if my heart doesnt beat loudly, i am still aware of its intensity. rather, i am aware of the intensity of my overall emotions. i can feel so strongly to the point it fills every crevice of my body, and pumps beside my blood through my veins. it isnt scary, though. i love this intensity, and i crave its feeling for every experience i behold. when something is underwhelming,  i feel lonely. its like theres a part of me missing, the part of me that becomes ecstatic with every beat of a song, every color change in a video, every smudge of a drawing. when the feeling returns, its as if im hugging myself, hugging a twin that doesnt exist. i could never survive without this feeling.