Midnight thoughts.

I don’t know, just recently life seems so hard on me. I’m pretty sure I fucked up my relationship with the guy I like/my best friend. Then my other friend has been acting weird towards me and it honestly makes me upset. I know I’m not the best but I feel pretty numb, aside from constant body pain, headaches, and tiredness. I just wanna get away. I wanna be free, without worries at all. I wish it was that easy, I truly do. The only thing I’ve been able to think about lately is murder and weird edgy stuff I guess? Like- I’ve been watching more of that stuff and usually I tend to find a huge liking to it. I dunno if it’s bad or not, I hope not because I wouldn’t wanna make anyone weirded out by me. But I just- I just don’t know.