My life feels like shit (vent post)

For someone who has been struggling with mental illness for the majority of my life i thought i was doing a lot better...until I wasn't. I've been bullied this entire school year (in middle school as well but it was never as bad as this) but i never really let it get to me. This entire year i was doing pretty good. and then suddenly a wave of depression has hit me again. It's even worse now because all the people i can go to aren't in the best mental state either and now i have to push all of my problems aside to help them. Not that i don't mind but its hard when all you want to do is off yourself. I cant talk to no one. all i am is the therapist friend