04/22/22, 00:03

i dont like the nighttime like i used to. during the day its fine, but at night, when im left alone in this vast, cold bed, with only my warmth, i feel so sad. from my window i can see the moon and airplanes. during the summers, ill sit out on my roof, against the chimney, and listen to trees rustling, and it makes me feel peaceful. but now, when its still cold out, all i can do is lay in my bed. i have a lot of things on my beds, pillows, stuffed animals, blankets, but it still feels like theres too much space, and it makes me feel so lonely. these nights, all i can do is hold myself, squeezing my sides until this feeling goes away. theres such a heavy and sad feeling in my chest, like im running out of air, and it leaves me feeling utterly desolate. i wish the summer would come sooner.