butcher and the butchee

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i don't even know what it will feel or look like (i've never gone for surgery or really any heavy medical procedures) 

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im lowkey scared of doctors and shit like that but i'm a big boy i'll figure it out.

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i used to really wanna be a coroner because it's all the fun of being a surgeon but you don't have to keep the patient alive! 

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i just have a need to dissect things and visually see with my own eyes how shit works and fits together. one of my friends actually got to go to a coroners lab and see the cadavers and i was so jealous! if my brain was less disabled i would definitely be in stem. don't get me wrong i love art but i never wanted art to be my career art is just a part of who i am not something i wanna monetize. well broken stem dreams aside i hope one day i can maybe get a tour of a lab or work with people in a stem way. 

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a disabled bitch can only dream though

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in my next life if i get nerfed with disability's again i'll be so pissed 

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at least they could have given me a disability people actually believe in! i tell people i'm mentally disabled and they deadass just cannot fathom it. like u??? pretty booby bitch???? has brain deformities!?! no cant be true?? 

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deadass even my own family try to say my disability aren't real because i'm so funny and pretty! (this is not gloating i would rather my brain be respected than be pretty) 

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although i'm sure people wish their disability's were invisible i cant say there aren't good things about it 

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people can't hatecrime you if they don't even know they hate you!! 

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although hearing people openly say the most ableist and horrible things about disabled people then just having to smile and nod knowing that this person truly believes i should be euthanized just for being disabled is one of the worst feelings ever 

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i wish i could live in a community with just trans-queer-disabled people and we could all be happy and care for each other