04/20/22, 10:30

sometimes, when i drive, i no longer feel my body. I can see my hands holding the wheel, but i just dont feel anything, but then a song will come on and suddenly im back into my body and my nerves are all working right. and at school, sometimes i like to close my eyes and breathe out all slow, and it helps me make the world quiet again. its fun, listening to the buzz of people walking and laughing and talking to one another, but not really hearing any of it. when im talking to my friends in class, i always end up looking outside into the courtyards, looking for the new flowers, and they end up having to repeat themselves. i feel kind of bad about that, so im gonna work on listening better. its so sunny out, and the clouds are so streaky, i wish it were warm enough to go out. when it is, id like to lay in the sun for a bit. today will be good.