life happenings #2 (vent post)

long story short, they had a moment last night, and today we called it off and are "just friends". can't say I couldn't see this coming, we tried many different ways of going about this and it seems to me they just can't deal with this sort of thing with me, sucks but as long as I can at the very least talk with them I think I'll be okay

i thought I was doing everything right, I guess what they say is true, after the 3 month period it truly is a test to see how the two of you will fare, guess it just wasn't meant to happen like this.

my face feels weird, my eyes are kind of spinning and shaking, I don't know what I'm feeling right now, maybe it's the thought that I can't get one relationship to work no matter how hard I try, whether it's my fault or the other parties fault, it never seems to work out with me.

i honestly can't tell whose fault it was I'm this situation, I believe it was me not being enough, another part believes that they just can't go through with this kind of stuff. it's all very confusing to me.

i just want them to be happy, I want to be happy, I want someone I can be able to share kisses and hugs with, to fall asleep with at night, I get so tired of waking up with nobody beside me, I wanna exchange gifts, hold someone, make them happy, god I just wanna get it right with someone, I never can, I just want someone who doesn't feel bad that they have me.

i just need a hug man, a kiss, someone to tell me it's all gonna be alright man