School

Nah, my school people will be so rude for no reason. Like why? And then when I'm nice to anyone I  "like them". Like I don't understand. And then my ex wants to try to fix everything by what seems like lying more. Like I'm not in a very good mood when I hear from them, much less when I have to try and talk it out with them. I refuse to do that without being bitchy. I refuse, Like they don't need to be like this. I don't want to talk for a reason not because I don't wan to talk, because if I do talk, I will blow the fuck up. Like I'm a pretty nice person but sometimes things go way too far. Like they made everything messy and I'm done. They remind me of my step-dad and my bio dad. I know I was the bad guy in the situation but I'm done being involved. Another friend of mine called me out on it and told me that I was being "not so understanding", yeah cause I just got traumatized and then you want to bring the same things back into my life? Huh...sounds a lot like a few people that I cut off. It takes a lot to get to this point and I cannot and will not continue to bring that negativity back into my life. I just don't understand why some people have to fuck up nice people. I know I really wasn't that nice, but I was making others around me happy so I feel that they can't get mad at me for jack. Like I was being very toxic during this because of all of the things going on. I told them that a lot just happened to me and that I keep reliving what happened and they continue to rant to me and show me fresh scars. Like I don't want to be around someone that won't help themselves and then turn around and expect others to work for them. That isn't how the world works.....uhhhhhhhhhhhh