Vent (cringe)

There is so much that I lack, that I am aware of, that I am working on, that I am, that I will be, and I am constantly reminded of it by ppl who know literally the core of my being because of how vulnerable I've been with them. 

Im wondering if there's something wrong with ME- if I'm not a good enough friend, if I haven't set down proper boundaries, if whatever, or if I just keep falling into the wrong crowd- I've been finding myself with less and less friends as I grow older and it's a good thing, lmfao girl trust me it's good where I'm at now in terms of that, but even my closest friends I feel like have this one particular nerve about me that they just like to pick at. It just bothers me so much how okay people are with straight up disrespecting my whole ass being with one damn backhanded comment. So honestly **** u guys. I've been so angry and upset the last few days and it's really putting me off with the whole friendships thing. Wondering if any of it is even worth it if they all end the same