life ig

so tonights vibe, asleep by the smiths, fade into you by mazzy star, and breathe by anna nalik. sad but comforting. idk i feel a weird connection to these songs, they remind me of my mom, this is gonna probs be confusing but, when i think of my mom i think of a bedroom, with deep burgandy purple walls, black and dark brown furniture, with no overhead lights on, just lit by candles scattered across the room, i imagine the closet to have sliding mirror doors, when i imagine her in this room, i think of her sitting criss cross infront of the closet door doing her makeup, its night time aswell. ive thought alot about her today, and besides her being absolute bat shit crazy, she was so warm and comforting. me and the guy i like are in kinda a rough spot rn. hes stressed and is scared  im gonna loose feeling and leave him. but im not. ive never really been in love, but my friends say that you know your in love when there the last thing you think of when you fall asleep and the first thing you think of when you wake up, and when you care more about their happiness then your own. theres a bug flying around my room rn. im still a little sick atm but im better than i was, i was thinking today, why do good people always like the people that treat them like shit. i have this friend, we can call her sally, sally likes this guy, lets call him chad. see chad is the biggest jerk ever and just so happens to live up the street from me, sally really likes chad but chad only likes her for her body, and she knows it, she just wont admit it because she embarrased, and i can understand that but she talks about how she wants to find a good guy that loves her for her all the time, so why dosent she do anything to find one? anyways ig thats it for tonight. bye