daily blogs #8

exhaustion has taken over today, i feel nothing. ironically i want to feel something. i want nothing more than to feel someone. to feel their affection, but thats old news, theres nothing ever new. just the same nothingness as always. the same feeling of when youre missing something but dont know what or where it could ever be. life becomes so mundane to the point where even things youve never done or dreamed of feel like youve lived it already. i havent truly lived so everything has always felt like a never ending deja vu moment. how do i get out of this loop that normal people call life?