daily blogs #3

woke up missing you today. to be honest not a day passes where youre not on my mind. i wish i knew if i was on your mind. woke up missing our conversations, even though they were always superficial & meaningless. i wish we still had conversations despite how lame they were. woke up thinking about your soft skin on mine. i wish we had gotten closer instead of farther apart. i wish you missed me as much as i do. i wish you wanted me in your life as much as i do. i wish things were different. all i can do though, is wake up missing you. all i can do is be forced to re-live the nightmare that we were because its better than the nightmare im living without you. we werent good together but being alone & without you is so much worse. i wish you still wanted to be in my life.