But the hardest part of leaving Is to make it look so easy part 13

I feel stupid writing about you again it's just annoying no one in this world has hurt me more than you did I guess that's why I'm confused about what I'm feeling right now because even though it al I'm still hoping for a reason you acted like this or an explanation but it's al going to be over soon I know when I step on that plane I won't think about you for another 6 months right now it terrifies me because if only been treaded wrong by so many people but the truth is if a man wanted to have you in his life he will and you're not doing anything I felt it al the 7 stages of grieve to a person that is still alive and I'm finally at excepting the next stage is moving on I hope you make the best of your days while I'm gone and you don't make another girl feel like the way I did I hope you find love someone that loves you even more than I did I do I hope you can look her in the eyes and say I wanna marry her in some ways you deserve it everyone does time will fly by and the memories we have is always going to be on my mind I wanted us to have more cuss I know there was a connection even when we were not together I would like to think you felt it too and got scared because you know it's real I'm letting you go I hope you still have the keychain I gave you and kept it because I will as a souvenir for our memory that you cant ruin even you're awful behavior won't it's locked in our mind I'm not that easy to forget aren't I? i think its really mean you leave me at my lowest and treat me  like im some girl thats obsessed with you