oversharing or not sharing enough

or about things. i see small details in like everything. istg its true. maybe because i dont have anything more interesting in my life than just watching people. not in a creepy way. just in interesting way. im interested in small, not important, details that people do. because almost nobody does the same thing. everyone is different at this point. and i never get used to something. 

and i love to talk FOR HOURS about some small things that maybe no one saw except me. 

is that some kind of oversharing?

but then at the same point i think that nobody knows about my life much. 

like i dont like to tell people what i had on breakfast or some shit like that. 

they all know my thought on something or what i think of that or that. 

but they know nothing about my life. 

my relationships with anyone. 

i just cant trust. 

i have awesome friends. 

i know them for like 6 years. 

and i also know that they would never tell anybody or judge me. 

but i cant 

i have no strength in me. 

yk to just sit down and tell anything. 

fucking anything. 

i just cant trust.

i know that if im going to do it then im going to be so anxious all the time after. 

and i know its not ok. 

and its never going to be. 

but thats me ig. 

maybe, someday, i will have a person im going to trust everything. 

every time i trusted i became so blind. 

even if huge red flags where just in front of me.