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hey guys! i've had to drop out of school and go to the hospital since i last posted! that was like 2 months ago, i've been in rehab since. i just got finished with that, actually, go me! rehab was booooring, but one of the counselors was so great that it was worth it. another counselor was just terrible, and i always skipped the days he was in charge. he talked sooo slowly, and everything he said was an incoherent mess of trying to sound smart. he was not smart. he phrased everything like it was some crazy breakthrough in the way we see the world, but it was all stuff i was thinking about as a toddler. this is a 50 year old man btw.
in other news, i have been reading more lately! i luv reading, i always have, so it's good to get back into that habit. i've been having these weird, 30 min episodes of kinda paralysis and idk what to do with them. this happens to me daily, from once to like five times in one day. i can technically move my limbs, i'm just far too tired to. I also can't communicate with anyone and tell them i'm fine. i'm fully aware of my environment, but i can't interact with it. not sure what's going on, but that's fine.
i have not interacted with anyone outside of my family and rehab for the last two months, but the loneliness has faded significantly now. someone from my highschool wants to hang out with me, but i don't even know what people do these days to hang out. do you go on a walk? do you just sit there on a couch?? i feel nostalgia for a time i never lived through where malls and arcades and parks existed. i know they still do, but in my area, they're all broken down and far away. i'm not going to drive two hours with a guy i never actually talked to all throughout highschool just to go somewhere that's about to shut down from lack of traffic and money.
this all sounds so sad, so here's the one good news!! i saw sloppy jane in concert! i can't even begin to describe the impact her music has made on my life, and meeting her and talking for 45 minutes felt like a dream. i flew across the country just for a concert that had 12 other attendees (that weren't even there for her). it's all thanks to my father, he told me he'd take me to see her if i got my shit together after leaving the hospital.
aaaaand that's the last two months! life's a risk, eat your neighbor!
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🌈🦕💖~Grace~💖🦕🌈
oo cool! What genre is sloppy jane?
and r u feeling better now?
she doesn't rlly have a genre! her music is very unique. i'm doing a lot better in some ways, but the same in others :D
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ohh ok cool! :DDD
btw, I'm always here for u. no matter wht!
by 🌈🦕💖~Grace~💖🦕🌈; ; Report