I don’t know what to call us anymore

I feel like him and I are in our own version of limbo land . Where we are stuck between friendship and the possibility  of something more . you tell me all these intimate moments and details that scream to me “I want you to know me , love me , accept me” . But when I do you seem to  knowingly punish me by blanking me out making me seem like the one who called upon you first . Making me seem like the one who fell first .