Heavy

sometimes i feeel like things mean way too much to me

i dont know if its the way my brain is wired or if its something i acnt unlearn

regardless, its a problem i have and face every day

maybe its the way i fear for the end of it all, maybe its the way i can never seem to get used to certain things

everyone seems to just float along weell in knowing and without regard or worry

 

a text a message a call

why do i put so much weight into a single action or a single thought or a setence

i feels like everything is going so fast and so lively for everyone around me, life is whizzing and full and great

mine is whizzing but in a way i cant seem to catch like a bug a fly a wasp 

and i don know why what means what and how it does when then and why and you know who and where?? i dont get it

i cant get it

i try to get it and it rips through, making a baring hole in my skin, a wound that leaves me in pain and throbbing and blood ooxes out of it and me but its not the first time it has happened so i wonder where it began but i cant think i cant know when it did because it has always just been

do you know what i mean?