bored,,,

The pandemic stole my teenage years, before in my senior high days all I wish to experience is the college life I know its going to be hard but hey the learning is what I wanna go for I wanna take Psychology and look where I am right now, in front of my laptop, tryna learn something over a zoom class. I hate it so much, that I didn't asked my mom to enroll me for freshman college. I wonder when will the world would go back to its original state. During normal times where Covid isn't existing yet, you will never see me around the house during weekends I  spent all my time partying and spending money, my mom got this job were she earns more money so I had all the time to spend it on leisure, now that the covid hits us I am so devastated, why now? when I'm graduating senior high? why now when my mom already found her career, I fucking hate it, where am I? Am I even supposed to go thru all of this? Did someone replaced me with other version of myself like quantum multiverse shit.