i miss having the passion for game dev

so i'm a graduating game dev student who majored in programming buuut is an artist 80% of the time (bc its my primary skillset)

i got really burned out say 3 years ago? but now that i'm finishing thesis and all that, it hit me that i really want to have the passion i lost (and all the better if its newfound passion)

i really like programming bc it gives me a way to make really cool interactive and generative art? like thats what got me hooked (on top of loving games and weird art projects) buuuut i also feel like being a game artist is the best case scenario. im in tune with my art skills, i've the eye for aesthetics, but it feels suffocating. i considered design (particularly UX and game mechanics) but im not exactly the most convincing person for that job :( 

i want to make solo projects but also i need a job and passion takes a lot of time to enact. ive already a few projects that are on hold. idk i just have a tinge or a kick of memory lane every now and then -- i used to be so hopeful and excited for this.

i know what happened too, and ive moved on from it, but the part where i rebuild myself is gruesome and tiring. funny how im graduating soon without much in it for me anymore. 

just some thoughts is all