I can’t sleep, feeling nostalgic and sad.

I have school in the next 3-4 hours and have yet to get any sleep. At first it was okay, just vibing with the music while I read myself to sleep, however the songs playing were all of my childhood and middle school to early high school music. The nostalgia hit really hard and I just laid in bed for hours thinking about life and all that while I “sad jammed” to my music. It went from pumping 2000s party/clubbing music to “of its time” early-mid 2010s music, along with those songs that just hit really hard in your emotions cause you forgot how meaningful they were to you. I think about how time just goes by so quickly and how everything changes, not realizing how much has happened until you finally look back. Looking back on what life was like back then and how it might become in the future. Wondering if your years growing up were actually good, or if it’s what you want to remember it as, because you don’t want to face the facts that it wasn’t. I swear it’s times like this when I just had to have a existential crisis at 4am in the morning on a school night. I’m gonna try to get at least some rest before 7am and hope I don’t wanna shoot my self in the head when I get up.Wish me luck.