sleepy blogging

Anyways. Trying to corral my thoughts here. Ah, yes. I reached 200 friends on here! I dont have an insta or snapchat, I do have a private twitter, but this ig is my most active place on social media. I'm pretty proud of how often I'm active, and I guess thats reflected in how many people I've friended now? not sure how many users are active as well, but its fun to just see people come and go on this site. I hope this place gets more recognition and attention, it seems like a well n dandy site to meet n chat with new people. Lots of nice furries and emo teens lmao. 

Trying to make a blog series, and failing! I wrote my first one on DnD the other day, very scattered and not as organized as I'd like. I like to write a lil bit more structured, and my ideal grouping and organization method in writing is more exemplified in my post on Poly relationships and dating (a much better blog post of mine and proof of my good work). So, maybe I'll wait to make the next part of the series when I get a lil bit more awake. 

In my personal day to day life, I'm doing alright. Friends are a lil bit worried about eachother, but I'm doing ok. I'm worried about them too :(. However, dispite things being a lil melancholy and macabre, I think theres still some brightness. I'm getting to hang out with gf again, rekindle a friendship with older friends. getting to enjoy the lil bits of life I missed a while ago. 

Speaking of that, I have some meetups planned this week, so let me tell you a bit about my social schedule! Today after school, I have a "Netflix n chill" style date at my house with gf. We are gonna watch studio ghibli and snuggle under blankets and drink hot chocolate and relax a lil. I miss her a lot, and even tho we talk irl and get to see eachother I feel like we bond the closest in private. Perhaps cuz we are both touchy feely people with a love language of physical affection ///. I like kisses what can I say o///o. 

On Tuesday (tommorow) I dont have anything planned, but I have an old friend from before covid i like to play cards with online sometimes, and might invite him over to the local library to play a game on our laptops next to eachother just for fun. Havn't seen him in person, he used to be a lil annoying shithead and now hes kinda more cool calm and collected, which has regained my respect. 

Wednesday I'm meeting with my bestie, shes a penpal who I havn't talked to irl in 3 years. We are actually really close, but never end up finding the time to hang out. This week, we plan on finally grabbing a coffee and chilling. I wanna introduce her to my gf, and their both a lil shy and nervous. My friend is lesbian and totally awkward around girls, so I hope I don't make her too uncomfy or feel like 3rd wheeling. I'll prolly ask my gf and tell her that I'm gonna try to dial back my PDA cuz my friend gets a lil bit awkward sometimes. Honestly looking like the highlight of my week tho. 

Thursday I have therapy, getting to see my therapist for the first time in 3 weeks. I think she's graduating from a program, and is going to have to reccomend me to a new one because she is getting a new job. Even though Ive known her for 4 months now and we meet once a week, it still feels new every time, in the good way. She's the first therapist ive felt really really comfortable talking to, and she doesn't mind me just ranting and listening throughout most of the session. I get like 2 more sessions before she leaves, and I'm a bit sad to see her go. I have so much to talk about rn, so this is a poorly coincidental time. 

Friday is relaxation day. I will likely go out to eat with my friends, or meet someone new, or whatever the hell I want cuz I dont like to plan Fridays, I like to just wing it and enjoy myself. 

Thats my social life rn, but academically, I'm in shambles. I like to joke, but I actually am an all As student with a reputation to uphold constantly. I work really hard, and recently am still recovering from a medical medicinal mental health crisis. I can't go into details, but it has messed with focus, tiredness, motivation, mood, and many other things. While I am still recovering, my doctor has insisted that the school system pad my grades and excuse me from certien assignments, to a varying degree of affectiveness. Being in Highschool, everything goes on my permanent record. I'm going to be very disapointed if I can't get a good grade in my classes cuz of a stupid personal disaster I can't control. Working on that, studying for tests. I have atleast 2 quizzes today, wish me luck or something haha. 

Wow, I really spent all of study writing this. Guess anyone who finds this has a lot to read. Enjoy! I hope your days are great aswell cuties, yall are so amazing. take care~ <3

-Dio