diarrhea

i have a genuine obsession with takis, but im so scared theyre literally eating my stomach away, and god forbid i eat one takis, because then i blink and im on my toilet just gripping the walls, sweating, toes curling, jesus christ. i start praying in my head, and the national anthem starts playing. eagle noises start going off, and i see the american flag. it's a genuine problem and i literally clutch my stomach with pure agony. and what am i doing when i write this? EATING TAKIS. its a never ending cycle. and then suddenly, i feel the kick of my stomach, and that.. familiar feeling.