I'm forced to choose myself part 3

these days feel like I'm forced to choose myself I don't get why im so easy to delete are the memories we have made and the love that I give and loyalty, not enough for respect to tell me why you would delete me that easy without explanation maybe I deserve it in some way I don't know for what but it must be for something karma is a bitch they say I can't do this anymore its al crumbling up and it's too much it's making me crazy I hear voices in my head calling my name i don't know how to make it stop the only medicine i have is a weed but I get so tired from it I don't like it but I love how it makes the voices go away does that make me sound crazy I don't think I'm okay i can't loose you to