January 4th, 2020: Nacho Cheese

I am a hollowed vessel. Doritos have become the only food item I can eat anymore. All this time spent chasing the cheesy high was in vain. I used to only eat Sweet Chili Heat, it never felt the same after the first bag though. I don't even think they make that flavor anymore, it doesn't matter anyway. This hole within me could never be filled by any ordinary Dorito and I've never managed to find another that could possibly make me feel the same way I did on that sacred Summer night. My sight has been affected by this Dorito diet as well, my vision has developed yellow hue that tints all which I see. Not even sleep gives me rest from this hell, I grind my teeth violently during my dreams imagining the savory crunch of ground corn chips. My doctor tells me that I need to introduce new foods into my diet as soon as I can, he said he's very worried about my health. He doesn't understand when I try to explain that it would all be worth it if I could reach that state of ecstasy that I had once felt.
I just fucking wish I could feel anything at this point