thing im afraid to say part 1

can't stop thinking about you for some reason even though I hate you for making me feel so sad I can't get over you for some reason and it's annoying to do you think about me too? I'm trying to be better I'm going to therapy next week wonder what my therapist has to say about you you're not even boyfriend material yet I still want you weird you're not even that hot if I'm going, to be honest, so why are you still on my mind, 9 out of 10 guys are hotter than you but there not you and that's annoying I cant replace you just how easy you replaced me you're special that's what I like about you you're everything I'm afraid to be I feel stupid and crazy for letting myself get so upset over you. it would have been a big lie if I said life was better without you