Diary of a dancer 5.30.2021 stoned ramblings

I truly miss the days of hopping onto things like gaia online and deviant art and even fanfiction and having whole friend networks on there. 

My life got so turbulant the last 7 years that most of it I havent even had a computer and cell service on my phones when i could even afford to have a not broken phone was rare. I backed off the internet everywhere except the main social media like facebook and instagram and stopped making art for years and just lost all connection to the websites that we're once a second home. 

Even now hopping back on gaia there's about 3,000 people on at a time which is still more than here right now honestly, it's still so slow, even other places like gaia are even slower. I have no active friends or watchers on my old deviant art lmao, it's like all the places I once couldn't go 10 minutes with out there being a message and something going on are now just ghost towns for me and it's kind of sad. 

I keep posting and updating here and checking in on every one anymore just because life has finally calmed down enough for me to have the time to now. After years I finally have a stable home and stable relationship and aren't just stuck in survival mode but now it seems everyones forgotten the old relics that I had to miss out on the last few good years of. 

I keep hoping this one will stay alive. It's just that perfect nostalgia spot that I'm grasping at straws for low key lmaooo 

TLDR: i miss my old internet friends on my lame ass nerd sites