better.

kind of feeling like i should be better, do things better, make everyone feel better. but what if i want to make it worse. i dont really care about anything except me and people i love. and i dont really care if it makes me self centered or selfish. why i should care about anything and everything if nobody cares back. and caring about EVERYTHING in this world very hurts me. its hard to keep up with everyone and still try to put myself together.