diary ig

idk. i feel like this place is not much like my diary. i dont write here like ever. BUT. if you ever read my twitter. theres like everything about me. i feel like theres no chance that somebody who knows me gonna find it. i like this kind of mystery. because people dont judge me off of my looks or body language. they dont judge me and im totally chill about it. because i cant really change my thoughts nor my feelings. i can express my thoughts on paper, internet entry, poetry. but i cant say it. i cant say anything out loud. thats why nobody knows even 1% of shit i write on twitter. and its sad. that i have such a huge trust issues. because i know a lot of secrets and i dont know how people can trust me that much. not that im not trust worthy (actually it makes me feel much better when somebody trusts me so much) i just dont know how they can trust so easily. i think i have to learn how to trust. but im scared to hold on the wrong person.