venting about a stupid friend.

so. hes criminally awkward. And sometimes can cross the line. so Im a bit more careful about what I say? i dont really make a lot of raunchy jokes n shit. i usually play the foil, the straight-man, the guy who keeps a straight facre and rarely cracks a smile for the sake of it. Its. idk. ive been kinda forced into thsi role? i feel like anb asshole, and i dont actually like being that guy, and I think it stems from some deep rooted insecurities and suiperiourity and judgement and anxiety and ive tried to loosen up around my friends in the last couple of years. However, im pretty anxious about my image around a few of em. and sometimes. some people dont know how to joke casually. 

this fucking child. this boy. he fucking sends cropped messages of me that frame me to look really shitty. Im saying some weird ass shit in them. So ofc i panic, dont remember context, start to freak out a lil. EVeryone else is playing it off as a joke, poking me a lil, saying how dissapointed they are, just to make it chill. Im laughing too, but behind the sceens im really shaken. He's like, made me really really uncomfy. I kept asking for context and the full screenshot and wracking dms and groupchats to see why the fucking hell i said that, and eventually he cracks and spills. So, it comes from a gc im not even part of anymore, so i couldnt jhave found it for context if i wanted to. And the actual shitty text that makes me look like a jerkish sexual... whatebver??? its autogenerated scrip from a random-text bot I was playing around with. I askred my friends for funny prompts, and then would post back the responce as I tinkerted with the settings. One of whihc was some really rank shit, which was funny at the time but without context makes me look so fucking bad. So now im relieved, but feeling kinda betrayed? he betrayed my trust and made me look shitty, in front of my closest friend in the server and my gf. ANd im not even like that, i dont really carte that much. But i felt really embarressed and ashamed and hurt. ANd then he stareted sending more shit as a joke, and i... i couldnt take it. I left, turned off discord. took a bit of a break,. everyone was concerned, adn I told them I needed to cool off. He's such a fuckign asshole sometimes :(