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Guys, gals, nonbinary pals, I don't care honestly, I'd just like to connect to another human being sometime. My friends are scarce and they have their own life that they easily deem more important than me since the beginning of the pandemic. Not to throw myself a pity party or anything, but I reached out many times, make sure they were okay and I got back nothing. Not that I did it to get anything in return but even a bit of small talk would have been nice from time to time.
I have been unemployed since last year October because they didn't want to extend my working contract with them, but my job as a mail(wo)man wasn't much to write home about (ayy lmao). I have been chronically ill for quite some time now.
I live together with my boyfriend of 10 years, 2 pet rabbits and 1 stolen cat. I have many hobbies caused by adhd, so one day I'll be working on a crochet blanket and the other I'll be working on a backpack made from toilet paper rolls and duct tape. I also love singing.
I don't usually do politics, but I stay away from extremist opinions. I'm very good at sitting on a fence, that might seem lazy sometimes but I have enough shit in my life as it is.
Furthermore I'm having existential panic attacks till 5 in the morning the past few weeks and today I called the mental healthy facility if they knew what the status of my application was so far (I've been waiting for several months) and they said to come for an intake in about a month, right on my 30th birthday. (Hello midlife crisis, you came right in time.) Intake does not mean therapy yet, that could take more time, so until then I need to survive myself, and I think I could do that by maybe meeting new people and talk every now and then.
So if anyone is up for it, hit me up!
I live together with my boyfriend of 10 years, 2 pet rabbits and 1 stolen cat. I have many hobbies caused by adhd, so one day I'll be working on a crochet blanket and the other I'll be working on a backpack made from toilet paper rolls and duct tape. I also love singing.
I don't usually do politics, but I stay away from extremist opinions. I'm very good at sitting on a fence, that might seem lazy sometimes but I have enough shit in my life as it is.
Furthermore I'm having existential panic attacks till 5 in the morning the past few weeks and today I called the mental healthy facility if they knew what the status of my application was so far (I've been waiting for several months) and they said to come for an intake in about a month, right on my 30th birthday. (Hello midlife crisis, you came right in time.) Intake does not mean therapy yet, that could take more time, so until then I need to survive myself, and I think I could do that by maybe meeting new people and talk every now and then.
So if anyone is up for it, hit me up!
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Pesadillas En Vivo
It's been a trippy last year or so. So much detachment but alot of learning and acceptance. Have you tried verlian in a capsule. They sell it at cvs. It honestly calms the fuck out of me. Let's me relax. Even sleep
I can't find it, (I'm also no American if that makes sense, haha) Did you mean Valerian? I've had some of those in the past, worked well and then they worked terribly.
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Yeah Valerian. Oops. I was having a few beers when I wrote that. Yeah it works pretty good. Every once in a while I'll take it for a couple weeks and then stop. For the most part I've been working to understand and work with my anxiety and stuff.
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But my panic attacks to come and go. It's been alot of work but I am in a way better place since a couple years ago.
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