rant: friendships and feelings

I have a weird relationship with friendship. Im good at it ig, i can make friends easily and build strong friendships fast and like nothing. The thing is, i have trouble judging character and setting boundries. Ive made poor decisions in the past and built up toxic friends that felt hurtful and trapping, and now im both afraid of making friends and not sure what to do with em. I’m bad at finding people i like. I think thats part of the issue. Probably also my awkward age range and maturity, putting me at the top of a cohort when I cant connect well with people who dont fit my level of engagement. Not to say im perfect with those above me, its just hard to find that balance. Its a struggle. I have friendships, but we dont share many interests and im lonely and bored irl. bluh.