a bad omen

But every time. Every time I let myself ignore my instincts, every time i want to this badly, I either cant, or I’m right. So if my worry is going to swallow me whole, I’m going to embrace it.

Its partially the readings, my cards. Everyone else’s readings I’ve given have been normal, but my own readings or between me and others have been clouded at best or warning at worst. I know, I know, self fulfilling prophecy and that bullshit, but please, hear me out. 

Its not just the cards. Its bad signs. There were places in the corner of my view, malicious places. Just these pitch black places on the landscape that felt different. That felt like something was there. Something beconing, something that knew that I sensed it. I couldn’t look at the moment better, but then it was gone.

Bad luck, with family and friends. People arguing for no reason, confrontations, animals acting strange, poor/uncharacteristic choices. On the other hand, the worst in people seems to be coming out, myself included. Friends are slowly drifting away, and even though I’m usually a calm and welcoming presence, I think something about me rn is offputting. I’m making them uncomfortable. 

Now. I know its late, I know I’m batshit insane, and yes I took my meds. I know tensions have been high, but I’m not one to crack under pressure. This feeling, its real. I know it is. Its not just my head, the wrongness. I think others are starting to notice too. So I’m going to make a formal prediction here. Something is going to shift, or appear, or happen, likely for the worse, in the next day or so. I dont know what, I dont know when, I dont know if its going to happen to me or someone near me. Just that it will, and I dont know when. Its not any of you reading this; yall are far enough away from me. And in 24 hrs, ill come back and say if I was right. Lets see…