I hate that it still hurts

I hate that even though months have passed I still can't let what happened go I think it stems from that fact that I really didn't deserve that I was good to this person anything thing this person asked for I did I was always a ride or die for this person and it took nothing for them to let me go and thats the part that hurts the most because even when I think back to when we were kids all I ever wanted was their friendship abut I guess that was too much to ask for. -Blue