i am having a shit time 2/21/22

accidentally closed this tab now i have to rewrite everything :^)

yesterday was chill until the last second when i was going to the store. i stopped at one of the side walls to count some change and when i started to leave some guy was like "hey wanna come with me?" which isnt the worst thing thats been said to me but i just shook my head and power walked away trying not to 1) break into a run and 2) start crying loudly in front of the store as i walked. i hid in the bathroom and had several mini panic attacks and texted my mom to drive me home and just had to suppress my complete and utter breakdown until i got home

i hate being a target. im short and move anxiously and look unsure of myself 24/7 and i walk alone and gravitate to uninhabited places which is WHERE PREDATORS ALSO HANG OUT. i hate it so much i need a guard dog or an intimidating boyfriend or a fucking gun at this point

so yeah. today ive just been hiding in my room. i dont want to exist right now.

i drew some warriors oc stuff though... ive been thinking a lot about my windclan healer hollyfang recently i really love him. drew the main characters lined up for some height refs

no MAIN main characters in riverclan or shadowclan but there are multiple significant ones. these four are the absolute most prominent

i hate drawing cats from the front i need to practice so much more but they look fine for the most part

song of the day: the fall by lovejoy. its on hollyfangs playlist. i love this song so so much