family issues

I wish I was friends with more people who were emo like me. I barely have any friends so most of my social interaction is with my dad and brother. my dad thinks my style is awful and "inappropriate." i used eye liner to to draw two lines on my nose and small x's under my eyes and he went on a rant about how I was scaring him and that he didn't like how emo I've been lately. I love my fam but we don't have anything in common and opposite morals. I can't talk to them about anything. every time my dad sees me dressed up he lets me know that he doesn't like it and he thinks I look awful. plus my brother (21) wants to hang out with my 24/7 but refuses to stop being racist and offensive. today he came in my room and laid down on my bed (he does this everyday. he says my bed is better than his, yes we've switched mattresses he still says mine is better) and as usual, he refused to leave. I asked him to leave, I threatened him to leave,  attempted to drag him out of my bed, and started punching him as hard as I could and he STILL was begging to stay. we do this routine everyday and I feel bad forcing him out of my room all the time but I can't stand him. I've talked to our dad and he had 4 harsh discussions with him, the last one he threatened to cut him off financially. i don't know how to nicely tell my brother that I hate hanging out with him because honestly, I hate everything about him. at least once a week I have to fight the urge to beat him because he makes my life hell. I have no power over him