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heya. Its really late here and I should be going to bed, which I will. Honestly, I was about to. But I got a message from a friend, and choose to read a poem by someone I used to know of. We wern't close, but it hit me profoundly. It made me cry. It reminded me of someone I know right now who's going through a troubled breakup. Her words were raw and unapologetic, and she spoke of love and hate and hardship and loss. I'm drawn to imagery, so I think the metaphores hit me deeper. She stressed her emotion so much that even though I didn't hear it vocally i could vividly almost picture it, in her voice, even though its been years. And then the tears came. I don't usually cry. I'm pretty.... contained. Ive been feeling more in these last few days, but this is the first time I cryed in a while. Not an ugly cry, just.... enough tears to wet my keyboard a bit.
She aint gonna read this, and we're many worlds away. Honestly, the reason I care is probably for my other actual friend im thinking of and projecting these words on, but it makes me feel like I know her, like maybe she could have been my friend and this pain she feels isn't as far as I'd like it to be. I'm drawn to it, and it isnt my business but it feels alive.
to anyone who feels this too, I dont really know what to say. Probably nothing at all. What I'v noticed is that sometimes, you need to let someone you love go. It could be different things... maybe your crush has turned sour, or maybe you've ended a toxic breakup, or maybe a friend is leaving you. It doesn't matter what, but I think if this lonely hollow wanting fills you you are what I speak of. Its going to hurt, well it probably does right now. I can't say I understand, and I can't say the path ahead is better. What I will say is that even though that person may be gone or should be gone, your grieving is a mourning I'd like to solute in solstace. Its a hard road my friend. Maybe a good friend or two can lighten your load. Take care and good night everyone
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