Calming down. A little, at least.

Yesterday went better than expected. After arriving at school I got to leave after period was over and went to a therapist appointment. (hi hello) everything yesterday was just very not good in my brainfunk. I had been cut off from max the previous night and I stayed up till 2 just existing. Did a little bit of vent art. But hey at least after the appointment I got a coffee and got to go home! then I just spent the day being useless and doing art stuff. then I slept. I wanna go back to sleep rn. with Max. We're texting rn and we're both tired. I hate that he's so far away, but we do wanna make plans to meet up right after school gets out!! I'm still anxious for some reason though. I don't have an explicit reason but I am. Maybe it's because I haven't eaten very much in the past couple of days. because I've been anxious. what a horrid cycle.