been a lil bit

[i do talk about being suicidal in the past so a little heads up]

so in the past couple weeks i have been working on my university pathway

i dont have much done yet but it just feels really weird to be talking about about it, let alone planning it. i genuinely never thought i'd make it to this point, all my plans ended when i was 13, so now its kinda like im just bullshitting through high school because i never had a game plan to begin with