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with the pandemic and all, my depression is hard to fight. I'm really lucky and grateful for my bf and my bestie doing what they can to help but most days its too much. I can't really do anything and the days are a blur. I can't tell ya what happened last week, I don't even know myself. my life is a big blur at this point and I just... I don't want to die. but I'm tired of this repitiveness and bad shit happening. maybe I'd be better off dead, who knows. I dont think I'd be, I really don't.
I got my first covid shot and I'm having a weird reaction to it nearly 2 weeks later. the area where i got it turned into a swollen red blotch, with a second one near it. they connected and now its one huge swollen blotch. I've never had a reaction to a vaccine
I'm just rambling but it feels good and I don't think many people will read it at all. if anyone got to the point, don't worry about me. I'll be fine, I have a lot to live for. life is just a bit much and also nothing at the same time right now and its driving me nuts
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xxkanyestan29xx
I feel you, keep positive and try to find some fun things to take your mind off of it
thank you. I'm trying to force myself on a schedule, I'm like my brother who has ADHD and autism in that I get worse when I don't have a set schedule, but i suck at setting one up myself even if I benefit from them.
currently my goal is to get back into learning Japanese, and actually memorize the Kana (the alphabets) and don't stress about kanji (crazy hard characters that even Japanese people can struggle with) like i did last time. so far tho my brain is mush and just wants to waste time on Overwatch
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Vibe, I need to talk to my therapist now haha
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