rant: fighting against overdramatizing feelings and grappling depression

a major problem for me when trying to communicate intense or powerful feelings is the insecurity of invalidity. I’m an edgy guy. i talk about deep or dark shit with friends usually, and i just generally think and talk with serious undertones. Its a bit dramatic, and even though thats not always the intent i talk with big words and in formal ways and that is often turned into comedic foil. Thats all fine and dandy, but the problem arises when i actually have tough feelings i want to convey. I have heavy imposter syndrome; i dont really care if i seem insincere or dramatic to others, more of my own doubting of the legitimacy of my heavy feelings. I have depression. thats a fact, and Im not bringing it up just to “woe is me” but to say that bringing mental illness into the equation makes it all harder.  Even writing this makes me feel like shit a lil because im just cataloging a heavy feeling into this big scene.