i feel guh...

i don't feel like a girl. i want to be noticed as a boy and i hate it because i don't know how to express it fully. because i don't care about what I'm labeled as but i hate the girl pronouns, and I'm mostly afraid of my current partner leaving me because i want to be male. i want to be seen as one because that's what i feel is right for me. I've never felt like a female ever and I'm now just realizing it. but im scared of what my family would say because they hate them so much, mainly my little sister, but my mom aswell. she cant bare the fact i dont want kids, how would she feel if i wanted to become a man??? shed hate me, tell me its just a phase, tell me that im a girl and i have girl parts. but whatever i dunno, i may just be overthinking this. 

im gonna talk to my partner about this soon.