Him (Kinda vent???)

Him.

Oh, what to say of him?

Maybe that he abandoned me, after my reason for living died in my arms.

"He got his phone taken again." Again?? Really? His mom hates me. I hate we're so far apart. I'd like to confront him face to face. I don't think he's actually grounded, if he is, it's on purpose. Whenever loving me gets inconvenient for him, he's gone. Why? Why does he get to just walk away? And then not even ask about me for months? Why am I left to beg his friends for non existent updates? 

Why do I love him?

Why do I miss him?

I want our cafe together, I want our family, our future. His love is unlike any love I've ever felt. 

His love made me love a being that's not even close to existing yet.

...I want him to come back. I miss my bubba.