School :/ (vent)

School has been draining me tbh. I've been keeping all my grades at As but I've basically stopped living. It's a stretch to say I was in the first place, tho. I've been online schooled since 5th grade and I'm so ungodly pissed about it. For years I've begged my mom to out me back in public school but she never did. She always promised she would if I kept my grades up but ofc once I realized she was just lying my grades would drop. She "promises" that my LAST YEAR of school will be public but I don't believe her.