Weird personality shift (good?)

I've always been an unstable person, or atleast like temperamental ig???? Most of this blog i have been bitching about how shite my life has been, now tho i have been uncharacteristically well. It's like nothing bad ever happened at all, i remember all of it, but i don't feel it. I'm a more well adjusted an optimistic person, and i was like this way back when, i thought i would never get to experience this again. I'm more caring and social, i don't have bursts of anger, i don't feel bitter about anything, i'm looking forward to spending time with people, and i'm not suspicious of them at all like how i usually am. It's so weird, i really don't want this to end. Because i remember that a few weeks ago i was really miserable, i don't think i posted anything here, there might be something in the private section but idk. And i had been doing pretty bad before that as well, and i haven't had a change of perspective like this probably ever, or not that i remember. The past decade just feels like a bad dream tbh, i lived it and i know that, but it's hazy and i don't really feel the emotional stakes that were there, maybe this is like letting go of trauma or something, was about time. Can't be carrying that around, i have stuff to do.

Ok but watch me go back to being miserable or something in a bit.

Also this isn't a manic episode, i've been sleeping and taking care of myself, haven't engaged in anything risky either, i've just been happy. Only thing i kinda miss is that i haven't been gaming, i've been touching grass so much, and seeing friends in person and playing board games and stuff, that i haven't had the time to play anything on my pc or my switch. A whole week has gone by of just: Wake up, check if anyone is interested in hanging out (there's usually someone) get ready, leave the house, have a fun day, come back home at like 1am :D

Then i sleep a good 10-12 hours, rinse and repeat.

This is like the good version of what i usually get, usually things are sorta neutral but then i become super paranoid and hostile for a bit. But now it feels like i remember stuff that i didn't properly even think about, i can recall a bunch of good memories that ik are real but i didn't really remember before, it's great, although i get a bit sad thinking about how it's over, but everything ends, i'm just glad i remember now.

This is probably the most positive blog entry i'll ever write.