Ain’t no turning back for me

I’m in it til it’s over. All I got at the end of the day is ME. I’m so tired of pouring my all into somebody else’s cup. My cup is drained and empty  I’m on the verge of tears damn near daily or I’m masking with weed. What do you do when weed ain’t strong enough to mask your emotions? I’m overwhelmed. I feel defeated. No matter how many steps I take I’m knocked back twice as much. I feel like I’m beating my head against a brick wall. I just want better for myself. I’m tired of people being distractions. I’m tired of my best not being good enough to get out of this riff I’m in. I’m tired of failing.  I’m tired of coming up short. I’m tired of celebrating too early. I’m tired of scrambling for scraps. For once I just want to stand on my own two feet and be Happy. I always get lost on people and lose everything including myself. It’s time I pivot and focus Solely on me.