disregard

i don’t know what i’m missing to keep me feeling this way. i’m constantly drowning in this thick sea, unable to reach the surface. i feel like i’ve made some mistake but it’s simply irrationality. i feel so empty and awful i can hardly bring myself to act like enjoy the things that surround me. im laying on my bed, letting it swallow me whole again. i wont resurface. it’s not like i want to. i’ve become much to easy to set off, sensitive. i don’t know what this is about, does it really matter? i’m sad, that’s all.