dealing with blunted affect - schizoaffective

I live with psychosis. My current official diagnosis is depression with psychosis, but we've been talking about it possibly being schizoaffective disorder, as I have psychotic episodes unrelated to my depression. 

Blunted affect is something I struggle a lot with. It's when your emotional expressions and gestures are diminished, leaving a flattening affect. It often makes me come off as emotionless, even when I'm very emotional or even extremely happy. 

I'm very lucky to have understanding friends and an understanding bf, but I wish I could express my emotions more without it feeling forced. Especially happiness. It's a constant struggle I don't wish on anyone. 

Hope everyone is doing well. <3