nostalgia or pity? | diary entry 7/7/26

back again

scrolling on insta seeing some swag asf content

get up only to watch youtube videos play or release cool shit

i'm finally sick of my stasis 

so i open my old laptop (because all my plugins are pirated onto it) 

and start creating instead of consuming... 

except i haven't yet, because i'm writing this. oops.

but it's almost nostalgic.

recently i started relearning yesterdays as performed by art tatum on the piano. and i felt like i was just, back in high school, over a year ago from today, struggling over the same parts of the same piece. 

is it nostalgic?

is it nostalgia to be running into the same habits and challenges as ever?

whatever 

i go do the thing now... 

and yes i'm still with my girlfren