Life Update or whatever

Idk how many people are still active on this site, or who will even see this, but i guess its nice to ramble into the void.

Not much good to update. Two months ago my childhood cat passed away: on 4/20 ironically bc he hates me and wants me to forever remember him on homestuck day. He was everything to me, my reason to even bother getting out of bed somedays. The last two years of his life, he was really my cat, i bought everything for him, took care of him. It still hurts even two months later. We did get a new cat: moreso because my aunt had her trapped in the bathroom because her other cats bullied the poor thing. She really is a sweetheart, her name is Pepper. I wasn't really ready to get a new cat, and some days it still really hurts to have her around, but i imagine its doing more good than harm.

Still a total shut in, no job, no aspirations, no motivation to do anything. Still no real close friends, only really talk to one of them much. The other two have their own things going on, one of them wont even speak to me anymore and i have a weird feeling it might be because of his girlfriend, but its not really my place to say anything.

I do at least have a server with some people i talk to, though really only on fridays and when im drunk enough the anxiety disappears, but better than nothing, I guess? My life is really kinda a depressing mess but maybe one day it will get better. Thats all i ccan really do is remind myself of that huh